Half my heart is in heaven and half my heart is here.
I can feel it. And it makes it difficult to be present here because my interior life is not here. It is consumed in heaven’s fire. My feet touch the earth, but barely. I am walking but I am not quite here. I feel drawn to Love beyond anything else I’ve ever been drawn to. My Lord’s desires are the only ones I care about. As evil surrounds the earth, I can feel the powers of heaven, mighty and powerful, and I am a part of this force, fighting beside. That is the mission and I see many do not understand this-the Church Militant.
A few weeks ago, I woke during the night because I could feel a bad presence. I woke to see a red demon looking at me. It was floating in the air about 7 feet from my bed. I made the Sign of the Cross and it disappeared.
Have mercy on me, Jesus. I am not fit for You. But I submit myself before You. I am here to serve.